beat my limit

Getting ready for my standard chartered 42.195km marathon. Number tags on shirt, checked! Timer on shoes, checked! something that is not ready is my rest!

Never run any marathon before, it's my virgin run! Months ago, i asked my daddy to join this marathon with me and he did. Since he's in, he started training by running at our area estate, daily. What did I do then? Hmm... run during sport lesson that's all i did. No trainning, no stamina, the only thing i have is streght and motivation!

Am I able to make i through the journey, my parents doubt me so. Thus i'm going to prove them wrong! wait for the good news guys :)

fishmonger is back!

Readers! i'm back from my long holiday/break, hope you guys really missme! Took a ride on a roller-coster, went through many ups and down, bumper cars and magical cup too. All the ride i took at the theme-park would be a memorable & fabulous memory keep in a mystery box. (It's a way of expressing my life.)

1st of December but it's the last month of year 2010!

Attended a numbers of party host & held by my friends, thousand of photos and hundreds of friends. I would try my best to upload thoese photos as my exam are over, YEAH MAN! For the time being let's listen to a song,"Jingle Bells Rocks" one of my favourite song for christmas! and from the next post onwards i will start the photo galleries :)

I'm going to be back in action!

There comes a time when I have to stand up and shout: This is me dame it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, fell the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make the decision!

Telling you, hiding from you, are just different decisions. Giving you up, forgetting you, will only frightened me not to move forward. I don't know why I am so worried about you out of nothing. The more I understand you, the closer I get to you. The more I hesitate, I know that I love you, but I don't have the courage to tell you. I am afraid of losing you, so I rather not say anything. How do I settle this, happiness that is in my hands. I hate myself, for being so helpless. I know that I love you, but I don't have the courage to get close to you. I act like I don't mind about it, but it actually hurts me. I can tolerate any pain, just that I can't bring myself not wanting you. I only hope to love you forever. I does not matter if you know it or not.

I clearly know that love is not dependable, but I still dove into it. I clearly know that it'll probably be a prison if I go any further, but I still chose to believe that it's just an ordeal. All my friends tell me don't, dont't; don't take my own happiness too lightly. But living is already so tiring I just want to pretend and escape the truth. If you can't even love wholeheartedly then that will truly be too unfortunate. Loving too sincerely will cause myself to sacrifice too easily, letting myself perish in love too easily, risking everthing too easily and becoming covered in wounds. I'm such a fool! I clearly know that you're the wrong person, clearly knowing we're not meant to be, but I still give it all I've got. Maybe, I'm being really foolish in love. Maybe, nothing lasts forever. But i'm not willing to give up this single bit of possibility. I'd rather be a fool than to regret.

WE COOK BETTER THAN MAMA!

Yes! I toally agreed that we can cook better than mama :)
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Supermarket, shopped for the ingredient that we need for our menu today. We have appetizers, main course (chicken), rice, noodle & finally end off with a dessert & "champagne!
Sound like we're having a big feast :)
Back home and start preparing the ingredient that we bought from supermarket. Clean/wash, chopped, marinated , weighted... ... and after 2hours of preparation and cooking,
here's our lunch served at 4pm. :)